Must be doing something right

So today I found out that a very, very good friend of our family- heck, he is as much family as any of my siblings are to me- named Mikey, died. While I know that he is in a better place and that I WILL see him again, such things news is still heart breaking to hear. Mikey was only 19 and had recently been stationed for his first army assignment to the 173rd Airbone in Vicenza, Italy. The only information I know at this time is that he was hiking and somehow misstepped and fell to his death. I was stunned by the news but something even harder was telling my kids, who loved their uncle Mikey very much.

Sean really doesnt understand and I knew Lucas was too young to understand either but the girls would. But how does one really explain to a 7 and a 5 year old the concept of death? I pondered this before just plunging into it. Kristin was the only one home since we'd just taken Jessica to a girl scout cookie booth sale. I told her simply that uncle Mikey had died. (I had no info at the time as to how.) Krissy's face fell but she didn't cry, like I had expected.

"He's not gonna come back to life then, right?", she asked at first. (We'd been telling girls that people don't get numerous lives like in video games. When game over came in real life, than you did not just try again and come back to life.) I said no, we don't come back to life like in video games. "But what about when jesus comes again?", she asked next. This stopped the tears I had coming from my eyes and stopped me dead in my tracks. "Yes when jesus comes again then he will be resurrected.", I assured her, a bit astounded at the moment. "Than he's ok mommy. He'll be ok cuz he's in heaven. And when jesus comes again we will see him again.", she said, simply and confidently. Wow maybe she really has been listening the past 7 going on 8 years. I guess Don and I have been doing something right.....

So close to the end! YESSSS!

Yes we are nearing the end of Don's deployment! And i cant wait for him to be home again. This year has been trying but a great learning and growing experience for our whole family. Still, I hope we dont and have no desire to be repeating this refining experience anytime soon! lol. anyways i am really writing this quick blog to say thank you to all of my family and friends who helped me get through the past year. Thank you immensly. I couldnt have done it without any of you. No matter where we may go, know that u all will always be loved and treasured part of our family.

Deployments are like hurricanes and are quite good for making one a better person

So its been months since i have blogged. I am so horrible at it. But I feel I have a legitimate excuse for not doing: deployment. Yes the dreaded word for any soldier/spouse. We hate them. (Other words we hate- tdy, lockdowns, field problems.) Don and I have been married for almost 9 years now-on march 17th-and i did some figuring in my head the other day....we have spent more than half of that apart due to all of those dreaded words i mentioned before. And the years apart have without a doubt been the most trying/horrible of our marriage. Its no wonder- I become a single mother while he is gone and he becomes a geographical bachelor. it doesnt make for an easy ride for any of us. the end of this latest deployment is coming to an end soon- i wont say when exactly due to operational security "OPSEC" concerns- and i am glad that it is almost over. i miss my best friend and my kids miss their dad.

But during these times its when i have found i have grown the most-ive become more self reliant, yet have learned when i need to ask for help; i have been humbled, yet still comforted when in sorrow; shown more love than i have known how to thank for and have had the chance to love in return, and ive come to know myself even better than before. they say it takes a storm to lead u to a place where u can grow. well i think deployments are hurricances in that aspect. im being refined daily and i remind myself of that as my world continues to be turned and my ship rocked daily by the small and big waves that have hit me. And if these storms are what it takes for me to make it to paradise on the other side....well then bring on the deployments because one day there wont be anymore and ill be able sail my ship without any storms

mr destructor- aka sean aaron hudak

yes mr destructor has been at it again. he broke our PS3. he jammed a movie into and not it wont turn on or anything. i got the movie out but still wont even turn on. he has also scratched our new tv we only bought a few months ago. it just seems like i cant have anything nice. sorry for whining, just tired and what not. and lonely- this whole deployment thing really sucks. bright side- don comes home on leave in 17 more days. so just gotta make it through june....

try to keep it not too preachy...

my neighbor/ a friend and i had a falling out a few months ago. i'd just gotten to the point where it didn't hurt so bad and didn't miss her quite so much, we'd been pretty good friends, and then yesterday she asks to talk to me. my first thought is- oh, crap i don't wanna fight today....she must've read my mind cuz she then added, don't worry i'm not in a b@#tchy mood. then she she apoligzed, tearfully too i might add. we talked some things out- which was what i had wanted to do to begin with, yesterday and today. but one thing that hit was her tears. she had found god in her life. it was beautiful to see her say she'd accepted jesus and god into her life. it's only been a day but she's so much happier. i'd been praying for a way for us to make-up and also for her happiness, which the lord answered. that's the short of it. hope it was not too preachy.

women r not prostitutes for wanting a valentines day gift!

my title pretty much says how i feel but let me explain....
don and i were listening to a local morning radio show yesterday. ( which by the way, i hate doing. i hate any and all talking on the radio. radio is meant for music in my opinion.) they had a guest on who thinks all men should boycott valentines day. he thinks that it's just commercial and that women were greedy for demanding gifts. he went on to say that women who dont get gitfs on valentines day and deny their partner/spouse/signifcant other sex are prostitutes. i was offended by that, whether the guys, forget the guys name, reasoning for saying it may or may not be true. i just think it's not something you should say about women. maybe i am wrong.

i like valentines day though i do think it very commercial. but i have nothing wrong with their being a specific day we show extra love or affection for each other. the world needs more love. but i also understand where some people may not like the hype of the day. we should be showing those we care about love year round as well.

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